I took Wednesday off work to help volunteer at Hiland Mountain during the women’s races: 5k, 10k and half marathon. Sarah ran the half so that was the reason I wanted to be there, plus being around all those awesome coaches was really lovely. The whole event was super  inspiring and made my heart so happy. I wish I could have taken photos but cameras and phones are not permitted.
I visited Sarah again today, Sunday, and I think I’m going to go every other week. I met Dena too, which was lovely and we plan to figure out what Sarah wants for visits.
I got home and ran four miles and tried staying below my maximum heart rate, which feels so much better but I also feel like I’m not working hard enough. I had an EKG about a month ago (ripped my implant scar capsule falling down near point) so there’s nothing wrong with my heart, but my heart rate just goes crazy when I run — probably poor cardio shape? But I’ve been running for six years now … It’s confusing.
Darkness is seaping in. My effing Anxiety has increased. Memory issues have been tested and I was slightly below the norm – probably due to anxiety. I’ve asked for Medicines to be adjusted and I’ve asked for something my doctor is researching first.
My breast implants have been felt by my plastic surgeon and there’s nothing to do but let the scar tissue re-heal. It’s not like starting over at the beginning of the breast cancer / implant hell, but it caused enough anxiety that I had made up my mind to have them removed … Until I was told just to let it heal again.
Whole life challenge social media black out is rocking my world. I think I’m going to curb my addiction to Facebook by being present more often. I like this way of living.
A Noodle & a Bean 
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